This season of life is difficult .
We have a 14 month old and twin 5 year olds. They each present their own challenges.
The baby (she’s really a toddler but she’ll always be my baby) is extremely needy and cries a lot when she’s not distracted.
Her crying really gets to me. I do my best to keep her happy and occupied but a lot of the time she just doesn’t want anything that I offer.
It’s really, really difficult.
When I say that out loud someone always tells me it could be worse, or it will get better, or that I’ll miss it. And I’m sure that’s all true.
But it doesn’t change the fact that this season of life is very difficult.
And it could be just me.
It could be just that I don’t roll with the punches well enough, or that I let the daily whines and cries from the littles get to me more than I should.
Please know, that as I write this, I also do my best to soak up the good moments. I try to squeeze in snuggles in the morning, and reading books in the afternoon. I love to sit and rock the baby and feel all her sweet goodness as she cuddles up to me in our favorite rocking recliner.
It’s the rest of the day. It’s the many moments that my toddler – who is either teething, in a learning leap, or just incredibly grumpy this week, we may never know – whines, cries, or even screams at me to make her happy. When I have no idea what she wants.
The happiest place in her little world used to be on the changing table. I don’t know why, but she used to love to lay there and happily play. Now, when I lay her down to change her diaper it’s like I have ruined her little world. Destroyed her.
When she’s not eating food in the high chair, held & bounced, or nursing, she’s often not happy lately. I don’t know why. But I do know that it’s wearing on me mentally.
I love my preschool aged twins. With all my heart. But this mom-gig is a struggle when the baby is frequently crying, and the twins want to fill the rest of the day with words & noises. They don’t appreciate silence. They much prefer noise.
I absolutely know this is normal. It’s also very hard for my brain. I rarely have any peace, quiet, or down time.
My heart is full of love for my kids. My mind is often overwhelmed by the noise and the needs.
I mean, who really knows until they experience it for themself how hard constant noise and being needed really is.
If you’re struggling today, too, know you’re not alone! You can love your kids with all of your heart, want to be there for them, and yet still be overwhelmed by it all. Take heart! I do remember how endless these days seemed when my twins were toddlers. Now with twin 5 year olds they are so much more independent and fun – and now Baby A needs our constant attention. So I know we will get through this and make it to the other side as well. You will, too. Hugs!